Frenetic frenzy frames one's fate
Exciter of senses, servitor of death
Wodan demands devotion and love
Divine inspiration vies for funeral pyre
Take my offering for me not to forget
The works of All-Father furious cast of his net.
Wodan is my father confessor, my Grandfatherly image so to speak. He not only instructs me on the runes but is often the one I go to when confused and hurt.
Most of what we speak of is intensely personal. However, I can share this. One evening in the midst of great emotional pain I kept seeing a shadowy figure. I finally sat and went to meditate. Wodan came, sat beside me, we talked. We talked about my soul. I told Him how it hurts so much but in a way it doesn’t hurt and in a way it hurts. It was odd. He explained, ‘the soul feels differently’ and He talked of the years of armor, the eschar of life, that was being peeled away. My soul had never felt before and now it was feeling. Yes, it would hurt.
Contact with the Divine will do this. Even if the God/esses aren't willfully opening one up their mere contact will start stripping the eschar of life, avoidance, and denial that us humans pile on. And if the God/esses do it purposely? It is stripped faster.
Later I went to Loki. 'I just had the oddest talk with Wodan. We talked about my soul!' He kept His face forward, looked at me out of the corner of his eye, such as He does when He doesn't want to distract distractable me, wants me to open up to Him, realize something. 'Why is that odd?' He asked. And I realized then, as I hope you do now, that of all people, of all entities, it is most certainly a God with which you should discuss the state of your soul.
Remember this~ Odin can be as clear as Kenaz, as guiding as Raido, as eloquent as Ansuz in the illumination of self.
This was a devotion originally written to be read from bottom to top (yeah, deal with my weirdness :) After writing, I realized it can be read from top to bottom also. Ultimately I read bottom to top, interject spontaneous sayings, then read top to bottom.
I pray to you
for your teachings
of time, though
for your gifts
I thank you
I honor you
Me to be as I should
You shape and form
A guiding light
Kind and cruel
You most high
Be my light
In the darkest of hours
I pray to you
A comment for those of you on the fence re Wodan and Loki. In many ways Wodan is ultimately my main God. There was a day He explained to me, paraphrased, 'You are Loki's, but you will be true to Me'. Loki was right there, no secrecy. This is not a conflict of interest in case any of you wonder. Balance is needed, I am exactly where I need to be.
There was a day that I was curious about other aspects of Wodan. I want to know these Gods and that means accepting all of their aspects.
So I entreatied him, 'let me know your furious aspect, let me see you as the Death God you also are'. I felt a nod.
Several days later Wodan came to me. It was a swirling, furious storm and He was the storm. I was pulled along in the current shaking as a leaf until He threw me into the blackest of pits. I saw nothing for a while but felt cold fear.
Later I asked Him if He had been angry at me- 'No', he explained. 'That was another part, isn't it what you wanted to see?' I was honored He revealed that small glimpse to me.
More about Odin:
Wunjo, Othila, Dagaz, Ansuz, Nauthiz
Bringer of joy
Provider of udal
Master of initiation
Smithy of words
Force of friction
I honor you~
who brings me love
gives me shelter
transforms my soul
inspires my heart
and directs my works
For all you have done~
I offer what I can,
My love and devotion